So why can't I choose my family? Don't get me wrong I love and worship my parents and my brother most of all, but there are sometimes when I feel I just don't fit, you know? They raised me very good, I had everything I needed as a child and many times even more than that. So did my brother and for him things were a little better because we have a 12 year gap between us and he was The Baby and suddenly I was the big sister before I became a teenager. Anyway I won't go into much detail about my family (maybe some day), but the point is this:
Do I feel I don't fit because we are not alike? (even though I am the female version of my father in character and I do have some elements from my mother too)
Do I feel I don't fit because we are not alike but the truth is we really are because they brought me to life and we have this stupid blood connection and what I see is just the future version of me which I don't like at all? (shit)
Am I that immature that I do not recognize the different problems that made them what they are today? (don't think so)
Should I care that much or should I just see what I need to do to settle my life first? (which is really really left behind)
Do parents in Greece have to literally kick out their children of their homes at the age of 18? (YES please) At least in every other "developed" country they do so and children over there turn out just fine.
Well I made up my mind for now; I love them more than anyone, I'm very happy I have them as parents, they are really very decent and good human beings, I would give my life for them but I have to first fix my life, settle with a job, a house, a man even. Live. I guess that is my real problem.
It's not them, it's that I don't have a life yet.