“I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.”

Monday, January 23, 2012

Fear factors

Sleep issues are on, family issues are on forever and ever til I die, the fitness is nowhere to be found, neither is a job. So....
Let me tell you what is the one thing that I'm really afraid of. Don't get me wrong, I get scared easily about a lot of stuff. If my family didn't know me, I bet they would think I'm 5 years old.
So the one thing that creeps me out.... The darkness. When I was a child, I was telling mum every night to leave a small light on so I can see (god knows what) before I fall asleep. I was such a sweet child. Nothing happened to me during a night or whatever and nobody has frightened me about it. I don't know why this is. And in winter time, things get tough. It's ok for me to walk on a summer night (after midnight) through the streets of my city, but it's difficult for me to walk especially alone in winter time. I guess it's the bad weather that makes it hard. You know, walking at 3 - 4 a.m, freezing cold, the wind blowing and making that hissing creepy sound... I'm a child of summer from birth, what can I do? Or maybe I've seen too many movies, who knows.

Other things that scare the hell out of me: heights(1), being closed up in very small places(2), cockroaches(3), velocity(4), snakes...

(1) When I'm on a building looking down, my head starts spinning and my first thought coming to mind: "fuck, if I somehow fall I'm so gonna fucking die"; strange as it may sound this does not apply in an airplane, probably because I like flying and I believe that if we fall, I'm gonna fly my way out of the disaster... I don't know how, as I'm pretty sure I'm not Peter Pan and I don't have Tinkerbell as my best buddy.

(2) Once when I was 10 or so I was stuck in an elevator, the light didn't go out but I kept screaming "help" banging the door with my hand; a little panic attack I may say; and I also cannot sleep if my head is under the blanket; need to breathe god damn it! You realize that death caused from suffocation is far from my favorite kind.

(3) These f**kers are still breathing after you chop their freaking heads off and banging them with a broom for 10 minutes.

(4) Well this is a love-hate situation. There are times where you're in your car, speeding, feeling so free, so fucking nice..... and then you realize that it takes just a small poke from the universe to fuck it all up and also remembering how two of your dearest friends were killed in a brutal car accident.


  1. Ok, wow! Lol... pretty intense! I was always afraid of the dark - and my other fear was fire. I used to have nightmares about houses being on fire all the time. hmm... not very pleasant memories!

    So anyway, what's your favourite ice cream? ;-) xxx

  2. ;-) Sounds great! I think mine is orange sherbet (although any fruit flavour is scrumptious!)

    And good news, I just tried your link from my blog and it worked! It took me to an older post, but at least it brought me to the right URL :-) xx

  3. That's because I changed my blog...again! Anyway I'm gonna leave it alone this time as far as the link is concerned but I can't get no satisfaction with the layout and theme you know??? What problems a woman can face :P

  4. I'm afraid of rejection or embarrassment. I fear uncomfortable situations. I also hate spiders and bees.

    I also fear the lady in red! If she were to get her horny hands on me, I may never be able to walk again! lol

  5. I pretty much have the same fears you have... But I must add I'm terribly afraid of swimming pools and the sea. When I was 8 I almost drown in the sea, so I developed a horrible feeling that I get every time I try to learn how to swim. I can't help thinking how much water I have under me and I think I'm going to drown in it. It's really awful =(


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